Confidence is Fatshion

I’m insecure so when one of the greatest Dutch plussize bloggers called me a beautiful Inbetweenie I knew I did good and that I’m on the right track with my blog

Really I was so scared when I saw she placed a comment on my facebookpost. But she motivated me. I guess it’s all the bullying in the past that made me so scared.

On my way to a dentist appointment guy kept wistling at me to get my attention when I wore this. Luckily I wore my headphones so I could pretend I didn’t hear it

On my way to a dentist appointment guy kept wistling at me to get my attention when I wore this. Luckily I wore my headphones so I could pretend I didn’t hear it

Don’t hate yourself or your body.
Such a powerful song!

mariskaisthemotto:

One of my favorite songs by Mary and man it’s hitting me so hard tonight. Oh my god. Oh my

"I Know girls who are trying to fit into the social norm
Like squeezing into last year’s prom dress
I know girls who are low rise, mac eye shadow, and binge drinking
I know girls that wonder if they’re disaster and sexy enough to fit in
I know girls who are fleeing bombs from the mosques of their skin
Playing Russian roulette with death; it’s never easy to accept that our bodies are fallible and flawed
But when do we draw the line?
When the knife hits the skin?
Isn’t it the same thing as purging
Because we’re so obsessed with death
Some women just have more guts than others

The funny thing is women like us don’t shoot
We swallow pills, still wanting to be beautiful at the morgue
Still proceeding to put on make-up
Still hoping that the mortician finds us fuckable and attractive
We might as well be buried with our shoes and handbags and scarves, girls
We flirt with death every time we etch a new tally mark into our skin
I know how to split my wrists to reveal a battlefield too
But the time has come for us to reclaim our bodies

Our bodies deserve more than to be war-torn and collateral
Offering this fuckdom as a pathetic means to say,
“I only know how to exist when I am wanted.”

Girls like us are hardly ever wanted, you know
We’re used up and we’re sad and drunk and
Perpetually waiting by the phone for someone to pick up and tell us that we did good
Well, you did good.

(I know I am because I said, “I am.”
My body is home)

Try this
Take your hands over your bumpy love body naked
And remember the first time you touched someone
With the sole purpose of learning all of them
Touched them because the light was pretty on them
And the dust in the sunlight danced the way your heart did
Touch yourself with a purpose
Your body is the most beautiful royal
Fathers and uncles are not claiming your knife anymore
Are not your razor, no
Put the sharpness back
Lay your hands flat and feel the surface of scarred skin
I once touched a tree with charred limbs
The stump was still breathing
But the tops were just ashy remains
I wonder what it’s like to come back from that because
Because sometimes I feel forest fires erupting from my wrists
And the smoke signals sent out are the most beautiful things I’ve ever seen

Love your body the way your mother loved your baby feet
And brother arm wrapping shoulders, and remember
This is important

You are worth more than who you fuck
You are worth more than a waistline
You are worth more than beer bottles displayed like drunken artifacts.
You are worth more than any naked body could proclaim in the shadows,
More than a man’s whim or your father’s mistake
You are no less valuable as a size 16 than a size 4
You are no less valuable as a 32a than a 36c
Your sexiness is defined by concentric circles within your wood
It is wisdom
You are a goddamn tree stump with leaves sprouting out

Reborn”

(via flying-dragonfly)

Photo’s from my shoot today.
YES! I’m HAPPY! The photo’s are exactly what I wanted them to be.

I’m freaking out. I just had the most amazing photoshoot. It was a birthday present I got from my mom so I said to the photographer I wanted the first outfit with shots to send to a castingagency and the second outfit with pictures you would see in magazines like ELLE and Cosmopolitan. Damn that guy did good!

I can’t wait to show you those photo’s! I was so in love when I saw them on his computer.

Last tuesday we went out with a boat through the ‘Hollandse Biesbosch’ And my friends said I should stand there so they could take a picture. It’s cloudy but it didn’t rain at all!

Last tuesday we went out with a boat through the ‘Hollandse Biesbosch’ And my friends said I should stand there so they could take a picture. It’s cloudy but it didn’t rain at all!

Got a wifi connection off and on so here is a quick OOTD of today.
Wearing a big white mens shirt, basic black tanktop, H&M+ jeans and Supra Sneakers

Got a wifi connection off and on so here is a quick OOTD of today.

Wearing a big white mens shirt, basic black tanktop, H&M+ jeans and Supra Sneakers

I now my posts have been on a dramatic low the last few months although I started to put new ones up more regulary the last few weeks. But now I’m moving house I won’t have my own internet untill at least June 17th.
I hate it, but it’s partially my own fault because I didn’t realise it takes 3 weeks to get it. But the last renter of my house wasn’t a good guy because my adress was blocked because the guy didn’t pay the bills. 
Anyway I hope I can upload some pics through my phone but I can’t promise it.Much Love,Suzanne

I now my posts have been on a dramatic low the last few months although I started to put new ones up more regulary the last few weeks. But now I’m moving house I won’t have my own internet untill at least June 17th.

I hate it, but it’s partially my own fault because I didn’t realise it takes 3 weeks to get it. But the last renter of my house wasn’t a good guy because my adress was blocked because the guy didn’t pay the bills. 

Anyway I hope I can upload some pics through my phone but I can’t promise it.
Much Love,
Suzanne

Out and about in a, as they call it, Tropical indoor butterfly jungle zoo. Or to make it easier a big greenhouse with mostly butterflies and plants. 

My trying to pack my stuff.
I’m moving house in 17 days… But packing isn’t going as planned

My trying to pack my stuff.
I’m moving house in 17 days… But packing isn’t going as planned

I struggled how to wear this dress so when I had the opportunity to meet a top Dutch Fashionstylist Bastiaan van Schaik I brought it with me to ask some advice. It was so simple: just wear it with al loose cardigan or a mens buttondown shirt. People arround me tell me I look more mature in this outfit.

I struggled how to wear this dress so when I had the opportunity to meet a top Dutch Fashionstylist Bastiaan van Schaik I brought it with me to ask some advice. It was so simple: just wear it with al loose cardigan or a mens buttondown shirt. People arround me tell me I look more mature in this outfit.

My lovely Melissa dress from swakdesigns arrived and I feel fantastic in it! It also looks like I have superlong legs ♥

My lovely Melissa dress from swakdesigns arrived and I feel fantastic in it! It also looks like I have superlong legs ♥

Today is Kingsday in The Netherlands so Orange is the color today.

I kept it simple because I’m not really the type to be completely Orange (with Red, White and Blue) I do wear a red bow headband.

curvily:

How often have you been shopping and you come across something that is just PERFECT, but does not go up to your size? Over 60% of American women wear a size 14 or above, but only 17% of clothing sold is 14 & up. That is a ridiculous disparity.
Moreover, when some brands move into plus (ahem H&M), they throw their signature trendy looks by the wayside in favor of flowy dark fabrics that they think “work” for plus sizes. That is crap. Plus size women want color, print, and structure. Moreover, we want variety. A group this numerous cannot be a monolith, and since style is such a personal thing, we all have different tastes. I want #plussizeplease to be a way to showcase the demand for styles we’d buy and rock, and all the money brands are forfeiting by refusing to expand their sizes.
So here’s how to use it:
1) Snap a picture of a garment you love but does not come in your size. Include the brand and price, tagging the company if possible. For example, I am in love with this Zara marble print dress. I would have purchased it yesterday if it went above a size L. My tweet would be:
“.@Zara marble print sheath, $59. I’d buy it right now if it came in my size. #plussizeplease”
2) Use it on any social media – Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, Pinterest… even Facebook supports hashtags now.
3) Tag anything you’d purchase, whether in store or online.
4) Feel free to include the size range it comes in and/or the size you think you’d need. Sizing can be tricky, so this is definitely not required.
5) Tell your friends! I don’t just want this to be a blogger thing – I want all women who wear size 14 and up to show their purchasing power and share styles they love. Let’s be unignorable!

curvily:

How often have you been shopping and you come across something that is just PERFECT, but does not go up to your size? Over 60% of American women wear a size 14 or above, but only 17% of clothing sold is 14 & up. That is a ridiculous disparity.

Moreover, when some brands move into plus (ahem H&M), they throw their signature trendy looks by the wayside in favor of flowy dark fabrics that they think “work” for plus sizes. That is crap. Plus size women want color, print, and structure. Moreover, we want variety. A group this numerous cannot be a monolith, and since style is such a personal thing, we all have different tastes. I want #plussizeplease to be a way to showcase the demand for styles we’d buy and rock, and all the money brands are forfeiting by refusing to expand their sizes.

So here’s how to use it:

1) Snap a picture of a garment you love but does not come in your size. Include the brand and price, tagging the company if possible. For example, I am in love with this Zara marble print dress. I would have purchased it yesterday if it went above a size L. My tweet would be:

“.@Zara marble print sheath, $59. I’d buy it right now if it came in my size. #plussizeplease”

2) Use it on any social media – Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, Pinterest… even Facebook supports hashtags now.

3) Tag anything you’d purchase, whether in store or online.

4) Feel free to include the size range it comes in and/or the size you think you’d need. Sizing can be tricky, so this is definitely not required.

5) Tell your friends! I don’t just want this to be a blogger thing – I want all women who wear size 14 and up to show their purchasing power and share styles they love. Let’s be unignorable!

(via fatshionlookbook)